A Sample of What I am Working on

This is a new approach on the blog. Every so often I will post a small sample of the current piece I am working on. Today, it is a simple of the second installment of the Do You Disgust Me series. This is a rough draft so the final draft may differ a little or be more fleshed out and fixed for grammar mistakes but still a little preview never hurt anybody. I hope everybody likes it.

Chapter 10:

I overslept. He scrambled to the kitchen, his heart beating heavily in his chest, looking at the clock on the oven that screamed 6:25. He will be walking in the doorway in five minutes expecting dinner. He ran to the daily meal planner, scanning to find out what today’s dinner was, hoping it would be something quick. Stuffed bell peppers. How the hell do I make that? Is it just stuffing salad into bell peppers? Wait? How do I even do that?

He turned to the recipe book on the island behind him and quickly scanned the table of contents before turning hastily to the right recipe. Cut the top of bell peppers and discard seeds…cook for five minutes. Salt it, cook hamburger meat, onion, and carrots in a separate saucepan, okay I can do both within five minutes…oh wait…cook for thirty minutes. Fuck.

He looked back at the clock, his heart pounding in his chest, failure already crippled his attempt of trying. I just wanted to take a nap. I didn’t think I would sleep the afternoon away. I just wanted to rest my eyes for a minute.

He leaned his hands on the island counter, squeezing the granite with his fingers that shook still with withdrawals but more so with fear. I am so screwed. What do I do? What the fuck do I do?

He heard a door opening in the house. He gripped the counter tighter as footsteps walked through the living room and into the kitchen. Don’t turn around. Whatever you do, don’t face him.

I just wanted a nap.

“Matt.” The voice of hell itself spoke.

Matt squeezed his eyes tightly, his body trembling now. “Yeah?”

“Why is this kitchen still dirty from breakfast?”

Because I fell asleep idiot, that’s what happened? I was functioning off of what an hour of sleep yesterday and haven’t eaten since last night. I am hungry and exhausted and in pain and I hate you. I fucking hate your guts. “I thought I did,” he lied.

“Guess I have to train you how to clean, too, don’t I?” Anger was already showcased on the kidnapper’s face. He tried to stay cool as he asked, “Where’s dinner?”

Matt bit his lip. He tightened his grip on the counter, counted back from ten, before admitting the truth. “I’m sorry, I fell asleep, I didn’t wake up until ten minutes ago. I have done nothing but I did plan on it.”

“My house doesn’t get clean just because you planned on cleaning. Food doesn’t magically appear on the table just because you wanted to make dinner. No, you decided sleep was more important than following my laws.”

“No, I didn’t, I really…” Matt tried, turning around to face his attacker. He froze as he saw Jaegar holding up two fingers and broke into sobs. “No, no, I’m sorry, I am so sorry, I won’t do it again. Please, don’t do this to me.”

This is why I told you not to turn around, idiot. Great job, now you got yourself all worked up. Matt shook the internal thoughts out of his head as he got on his knees, hands together in begging stance, “I am begging you to give me another chance.”

There a minute of silence. Matt closed his eyes. Why isn’t he talking? Why isn’t he saying anything?

“Matt, remember when we went over rules? We agreed that you would do your duties regardless of pain or sickness that includes sleepiness.”

Matt, bit his tongue, feeling anger rise up within him like larva rising in an erupting volcano. Leave it alone. Don’t talk back to him, don’t make it worse. Just nod your head and accept your punishment.

“Our rules?” He snapped, ignoring the voice in the back of his mind. “There is nothing ‘ours’ about the rules.”

The room fell into silence again. Then the voice sounded increasingly angry, “If I recall you agreed to the rules.”

Matt’s eyes widened. “Agreed? I would never fucking agree to your shitty rules. You forced them on me.”




And then the room exploded into a noise.

New Year News

We left 2017 behind in the dark and invite 2018 to show us all strength and sanity.


After releasing my book in October (here is my amazon page…check it out), I took a small break for the holidays. I wanted to spend some time with my family and celebrate in my small victory of publishing. Now, in mid January, its time to get back to work on the next installment of the Do I Disgust You saga. This is a challenging novel to write due to the theme of the book (I do not want to give it away for those who have yet to read or finish my first novel).

This next installment will be intense, violent, and very brutal but still a sense of hope and bravery that leads readers on a ride they cannot put down. My goal is to publish in August of 2018 but will not label the date until I get closer to it.

For anybody interested, please subscribe and check back here for news. if anybody wants to check out my first book, I have the summary here:

Matt Williams, an aspiring rock star, is in a profoundly steep downward spiral. He’s quickly losing control of his life to sex, drugs, and alcohol—and things are about to get much worse.

Matt wakes up naked one morning in a stranger’s bed. This wouldn’t be so unusual, except Matt has almost no memory of the man or the night before. Disappointed in Matt’s poor choices, his friends and bandmates wash their hands of him.

The mysterious one-night stand comes back to haunt Matt: he finds himself being stalked, and the threatening behavior keeps getting worse. With no friends to turn to, and with drugs and alcohol always beckoning, Matt begins to feel closer to death than he has any other time in his life.

Part thriller, part romance, You Will Be Mine is a dark story about addiction and obsession. As Matt wrestles with his internal demons, an external demon comes riding into his life and threatens to take everything. Can Matt reclaim his life from this insidious stalker? And even if Matt escapes this overzealous fan, can he survive his own poor choices?

-You Will Be Mine